i wonder how many of u still frequent this blog, since i haven been blogging often liaoz.. anyway, i just decided to blog something today...
times have changed.. exams used to be so real, so intensified, but now the pressure are no longer there.. they are just not the same...
always went into the exam hall and coming out thinking, "aiyah.. it's very natural not to do as well in uni one la..", but i wonder sometimes if it's really true...
has the things to be studied really become more difficult, more difficult to understand, or am i just not putting the effort i used to put in?
had taken 3 papers... all gone.. surely can't do well.. but i really doesn't seem to worry much.. only thing is that i think i failed my parents..
they had sponsored me for the education, and how can i just afford to scrape through every exam, without getting desirable results... i don't want to disppoint them...
i called home today to inform mum that i will be going home on sunday... and then she just sort of ask how were the papers.... i didn't know how to ans, so i just said the usual "ok lor.."
and then she said, "会及格就好，不要给自己太多压力。"
i was touched when i heard that... i know she really don't want to give me additional pressure... i know she heard from people that it's tough to study in uni... but it just makes me cry... how can i bring myself to face her if i were to do badly? i really dun wanna disappoint anyone... i just want to make her feel proud of me... but i think i had really really failed this time...
